Father's Day

Landon posted the other day on FB.  I didn't even know about it until it had been there a while.  He said some very special things that tore me up inside, in the very best way of being torn up inside.... I couldn't hold this one back at all... it just power punched me right in the heart and I was a pool of goo after that....literally I think I just melted onto my knees.

First:  The photo.... How on earth did he get this??  I don't even remember owning this one.  Rod Manning was my companion in Portugal when I served my mission for the LDS Church back in....uh oh...are you ready?   1985.   Landon is on the right, looking better....as he should, with his last companion in Edmonton.  What a cool pic!  I will treasure this one....

Second:  The honor......What an incredible way to honor this long standing LDS tradition of serving missions.  Mine changed me and my life forever... I believe Landon's has done the same for him.

Third:  The gratitude.....this is pretty profound for me.  Other compliments are wonderful.  This one....wow... kinda can't really express or completely take in yet.  It is like the water overflowing a pitcher in the sink...  not enough room.  I think of all the people in my life that it took to help form my choice to go.  Too many people, not enough words.  This is just so very deep and special to me.  

So what is the lesson?  Do good things... all the time,  'cause someone is watching and you truly never know what the ripple effect can be....

You think that sometimes it is the things you say that might be the biggest part of parenting.... finding the right words, saying them the right way, trying to never miss those teaching moments that are so fleeting... but this is a reminder that maybe one of the best parenting practices was about something I did vs said.   Especially crazy since my mission was 30 years ago, long before I was a parent.  Interesting to now hear Landon's thoughts and feelings about what I did so many years ago, now continues to influence him in a pretty significant way.  

Humbling is what it is..... and beautiful too.  I love you more than you will ever know.  Thanks for taking the time, sharing your words, hoping and knowing that I would love it.  Thanks for your generosity.

Landon.... I can't really find the words to express the gift you just gave me.  I will find room for it, and I will make a special place to honor it with you.  A trophy, a legacy, an echo of eternity.....


                                        Thank you.
                                               谢谢

The Sound of one Million Memories

The second time I ever heard "Careless Whisper" was on the plane leaving Madeira. The saxophone had barely started when something in my chest gave way. I was nineteen. I didn't even really know who George Michael was yet. But I knew what that song held — seven months of a life I was leaving behind, pressed into four minutes of music like flowers dried between the pages of a book.

The first time I heard it was the day I arrived. It was playing on the radio when I walked into Mae Amelia's house for the first time — she was the first member of the Church ever on that island, and she had built a small apartment in her garage just for the missionaries. She became our second mother before we'd even unpacked. She cooked every meal. She let us eat with her family. She had this way of making you feel like you had always belonged there, even when you'd just arrived from somewhere else entirely — which, for me, was always. I remember noticing the song that first day and thinking: this place is going to be something. And it absolutely was.

Have you ever heard a song and found yourself suddenly, completely somewhere else? Not just remembering — actually there, immersed in every detail, every feeling, every smell. It happens with a phrase sometimes, or a word, or the particular way light falls on an afternoon. Something outside you reaches in and pulls the past forward. The feeling is never really gone — it has just been waiting. Patient and knowing, like an old book pulled from a shelf, dusted off, opened to find that the underlined passages still land exactly as they did the first time. Still relevant. Still deep. Still yours.

Memories never truly fade. They get put aside, just out of reach — until something calls them back. And then they are astonishingly present. Every detail, every emotion, fully assembled and ready. The subtle creak of the memory door opening is the sound of one million memories. An invitation to return and drink deeply from a well that never runs dry. Every memory its own destination — its own language, tone, and timbre. Its own feeling that is never truly forgotten.

Just like mine on that plane. I wasn't prepared for what those opening notes would do to me. Every face. Every doorstep. Every meal around Mae Amelia's table. A million moments flooding back all at once, before Madeira had even disappeared beneath the clouds.

I am hearing a lot of creaks these days. Kids leaving home, changing jobs, friends no longer seen. But when the door opens, what comes through is almost always beautiful — warm and familiar, like falling water over rocks. The hard part is knowing I can't stay. I have to wake up, return to today, and find what it takes to make the next memory worth visiting someday.

Remembering, to me, is the sound of one million memories.

May you hear the creak of your own remembering — and when you do, may you return, soak, and marvel at what you find. Nothing is so sweet or so powerfully moving as those little trips that capture your imagination, refine your purpose, and remind you who you really are.

Remember well.